The closed door, beyond the sun-dappled light of the walkway leading into my house, served as metaphor for Self Inquiry. As a Truth Seeker, I saw ‘the path’ as that which I’d been walking in pursuit of improving the personal. As that focus shifted, I saw the closed door, beyond the path, as most revealing. Could finding True Self be as simple as shifting focus?
What lies beyond the path of developing the personal constitutes the difference between striving to get home and being home. Often the entrance to home is missed completely by conditioned response to false self. Until the door to True Self is opened, we remain in search of that which cannot be found. . . out there. Closed off from who we are. . .or who the mind tells us we are. . . we remain bound by the illusion of truth.
That which we grasp for to ‘awaken’ takes us only deeper into the world of form, ultimately leaving us homeless. Focus on the path of personal development can become a familiar and comfortable way of living. Yet for those who are of the nature of consciousness, the knowing that connection with True Self can only be pointed to from here, triggers a shift in focus.
We hear a lot about being the change we want to see. The mind then comes up with a ‘plan’. Awakening into universal consciousness, within the world of form, is the way in which the mind has determined this task will be accomplished. However, this idea of awakening into a greater understanding of who we are already, does not open the door to home but rather becomes a distraction deterring us from True Self-realization.
Self-inquiry takes us beyond the path of the personal to the door of the impersonal, a place as unfamiliar to the ego as a foreign country. The ego fears this type of inquiry as it anticipates its own demise.
Truth Teachings act like water poured over the flames of the mind’s personality-perpetuated fire. Fueled by narcissistic tendencies and delusions of grandeur, the small self seeks control for as long as possible, at the cost of True Self-realization. Here is met the discomfort of friction.
“When the illusion of a seeming ‘somebody’ is seen through, the Real is revealed. This Self is not really ‘you’ at all in the physical, psychological or historical sense. It is pure perfection. You are That”. Mooji