Each Sunday something from the previous week stands out that catches my attention and causes me to write. Except this week. This week there appeared to be nothing. . . but the never-ending hunt for loose threads.
‘Round and round I go’ kept repeating in my head. I could not come up with a single stimulating idea or inspirational thought worth its weight in print. The urge to ‘do’ something caused me to question what exactly I had done all week.
And so the mental check list began; I’d opted in on a new home care assignment, made enough Italian red sauce to feed the neighborhood, found a new outlet for my travel writing, finished the rag rug project I began 2 months ago, rearranged my living area and prepared the outdoor patio for summer. . . yet even with all that I’d ‘done’, it seemed there should be more to do. . .and write about.
Energized for something, I worked on a grocery list for next week while settling in for yet another dish of pasta and red sauce. . .this is when the light dawned. I was being visited by the energy of completion. . which felt surprisingly unsettling.
“Completion is the aspect of time that generates human energy” came words I remembered from an old time management workshop. I’d completed my craft project, the personal care case started and stopped in just four short days, I’d found a potential market for my written pieces, the garden had taken hold and was growing nicely on its own. . . for all intents and purposes I was officially “DONE” ! So much space had been created as a result of all the completions I’d experienced, that I literally didn’t have anything left to do that needed doing. The doer in me however, was still going round and round looking for something (anything) to “do”.
Taking a break from doing – so as to enjoy the fruits of our labors - can sometimes feel as uncomfortable as navigating life in a foreign country.
And with that thought I tell myself; “Just for today I will enjoy doing nothing while sipping homemade lemonade”. . .right after I write my blog post and go to the market for fresh lemons:)